There is a woman I like, after some event another guy went first up to talk to her and I felt like I received some sort of eye roll from the bloke. I didn’t like his presence.
I said “bye” to the woman and left expeditiously.
What just happened? What was that feeling?
I wasn’t angry, I wasn’t sad I was confused. After spending the week talking with friends and processing my own emotions I realized I was jealous. It’s not a feeling I have felt in awhile. I was jealous because I have thought about her and I wanted to hear her talk. I was jealous because this guy seemed to do it effortlessly and I’ve been a nervous wreck these past couple months. It didn’t feel great and I still feel it now.
One of my friends was like
“Dude next time, fuck that guy, I’ll go talk his ass off to him and make sure he never is able to leave the conversation”.
This made me laugh a bit. Jealously is a natural feeling and we all feel it. A friend in my relationship said that single people have it worse. When jealously happens, we can’t just talk to our spouse about why we are jealous and how to ameliorate the feeling. We don’t have anyone, take that feeling for what it is, talk to friends, talk to yourself, process it and learn how to deal with it.
One of the positives sides to this is that I felt jealous because I cared about someone enough to feel this. I felt human and felt emotionally strong that I was able to recognize the emotion when it happened and not act on it as I would have most likely when I was a kid.
